Toronto

A long day today...

This morning was a very long appointment at pre anesthesia clinic. After a lengthy discussion regarding Noah's history, the surgical risks and the need for a PICU bed after surgery, we were given the go ahead for anesthetic in the near future.

Then this afternoon at TPN clinic, our surgeon made the decision that we shouldn't be doing any surgery until we have another opinion from Toronto Sick Kids. I was told that Toronto was "now or never"...either go for another opinion if we were really serious about this, or continue palliative measures here. We've been talking about Toronto for the past couple of months. We've said no to going a couple of times, as it just wasn't good timing for us. We wanted to wait until fall...really for my own selfish reasons...

I just really wanted a break...

is it really too much to ask for???

We could be there up to a month, and Manitoba Health will only pay for flights for Noah and one parent (which will be me)...no other expenses. So, I haven't been jumping at the chance to be away from Brad & the kids, stuck in a strange hospital for who knows how long.

But...as always, if this is what needs to be done for Noah, then I will pick myself up by my bootstraps and we will forge ahead. I know that this needs to be done to make sure that we have given Noah every chance possible...it needs to be done. I just wasn't quite ready for it yet...so today took me a bit by surprise. I did give the ok to get the ball rolling and now we are just waiting on a date.

So no surgery in the near future...a trip to Toronto Sick Kids instead.