Tuesday, April 27, 2010

9 Months

9 months...
9 months we waited for our son...from the moment we knew of his existence on this earth, to his birth.
Now, 9 months has passed since his soul left this earth...
On the outside I think I look like I am doing ok. I have taken on a new job recently, a job which hits very close to home and emotionally is tough...but I can't imagine a place I would enjoy more and it is the perfect job for me in every way. I have also taken up running again...this has become my therapy. But on the inside, I am still so very fragile...one moment I will be ok, feeling like I am strong enough to handle this...the very next moment I am blindsided by a scent, a sound, a memory that I had pushed aside.

The rest of the family is keeping themselves busy as well and we are all finding ways to fill the days. Kailyn still struggles with sleeping issues, but they are slowly improving with time. On a side note: to the person who is responsible for the delivery of a single white rose to Brad's office on the 29th of each month, thank you!! We do not know who you are, but the gesture is so appreciated!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Dancing With The Angels


Memories surround me
But sadness has found me
I’d do anything for more time
Never before has someone meant more
And I can’t get you out of my mind

There is so much that I don’t understand
But I know

You’re dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
You’re dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you’re dancing with the angels

You had love for your family
Love for all people
Love for the Father, and Son
Your heart will be heard
In you unspoken words
Through generations to come

There is so much that I don’t understand
But I know

You're dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
You're dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you're dancing with the angels

We’re only here for such a short time
So I’m gonna stand up
Shout out
And sing Hallelujah
One day I’ll see you again

I will be dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
I'm dancing with the angels
Heaven will fill our eyes
When we're dancing with the angels
When we're dancing with the angels

Monk & Neagle ~ Dancing with the Angels

Monday, April 05, 2010

Easter 2010

We spent the Easter weekend away, attending a wedding...a beautiful way to celebrate a holiday fill of hope and promise. Another holiday "first" behind us. I wish I knew what to do with this huge void...this empty space in our lives...in everything we do. I will never get used to this...nor would I want to... Wishing we could be celebrating with you, Noah.