Saturday, August 29, 2009
Our whole world crumbled in a moment and yet life continues on around us as if nothing has changed. The sun still rises, the birds still sing, plans are still made.
Life goes on.
But for us, life will never be the same. We've heard some comments that now our lives can get back to "normal". I have to chuckle at that. The thing is, that the past 4 years was our normal. Yes, it was a precarious life, a life that was not envied by others. But we were good at that life. We loved that life. We learned how to roll with the punches, how to cope in the busyness. We'd do it all and more in a heartbeat, just to have our Noah back. For we got back SO much more than we ever gave. I hate our new normal...that this is now our reality. That our sunny little boy, who never held back his unconditional love, ceases to exist here on earth.
Yes, life goes on.
But for us, it will never be as full, as bright as it was with Noah.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
So much that I miss...
I miss your sweet disposition...the sunshine in our days...the way your eyes would disappear when you smiled...watching you bum scoot down the hall...untangling your tubes for the millionth time each day...picking up the tupperware left in your wake...hooking up your pumps every night...the smell of your hair just freshly washed.
I miss the sounds of you...your belly laugh...hearing you call out "mama"...your cry...the sound of your bucket trailing after you...the soothing sounds of pumps..the harsh middle of the night beeps...the gentle swoosh of the oxygen concentrator.
But it's the weight of you that I miss the most. I can look at pictures...I can listen to the videos of your laughter...I can still smell you in the last sleeper you ever wore...I can even still turn on the pumps for a moment, just to hear their familiar sounds. But my mind can no longer conjure up the weight of you. The feel of you in my arms...your tiny hands clinging to my shirt as I carry you.
I miss you.
Saturday, August 08, 2009
This first video was played during the service on tuesday, and the second video was played at the end of the service, as we (the family) said our final goodbyes to Noah. Thank you so much Erin...we will treasure these always.
Desperately missing you, sweet Noah, more than words could ever say...
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Noah Grant John Loewen
September 21, 2005 - July 29, 2009
Funeral service will be held on Tuesday, August 4, 2009 at 2:30pm
Fort Garry MB Church1771 Pembina Hwy, Winnipeg, MB
Fly to Jesus, sweet baby boy...