Tuesday, April 27, 2010

9 Months

9 months...
9 months we waited for our son...from the moment we knew of his existence on this earth, to his birth.
Now, 9 months has passed since his soul left this earth...
On the outside I think I look like I am doing ok. I have taken on a new job recently, a job which hits very close to home and emotionally is tough...but I can't imagine a place I would enjoy more and it is the perfect job for me in every way. I have also taken up running again...this has become my therapy. But on the inside, I am still so very fragile...one moment I will be ok, feeling like I am strong enough to handle this...the very next moment I am blindsided by a scent, a sound, a memory that I had pushed aside.

The rest of the family is keeping themselves busy as well and we are all finding ways to fill the days. Kailyn still struggles with sleeping issues, but they are slowly improving with time. On a side note: to the person who is responsible for the delivery of a single white rose to Brad's office on the 29th of each month, thank you!! We do not know who you are, but the gesture is so appreciated!!

8 comments:

Kathy's corner said...

I am thinking of you today, knowing that your heart aches so much for Noah, and to beable to hold him again. I am also thankful that you are giving life to this little boy that you work with. God placed you in his life, and you will offer him more than any other caregiver could. His pasrents are blessed to have you. A big thank you from me as well, to whomever sends the rose. Thank you for caring for my daughter. You are always in our prayers. love mom

The Keowns said...

yeah for running!
praying always

nicole said...

Thinking of you all today.

Maroo said...

Hey darling -

I am so glad to see that you are running and have found a job fits your extensive talent and heart.

I know it can't be easy to move on each day.

What a wonderful idea - a white rose each month on the 29th. What an incredible gesture. Wish I had thought of it.

Hugs to you all! We are still praying for you guys each and every day!

Kim said...

Remembering Noah in a special way today, knowing how very much he is loved by his family. Remembering you too! Love to you all...

Jamie said...

Thinking of you guys today - the white rose delivery is very cool :)

The A Team said...

Thinking of you today...neat idea about the white rose...

Anonymous said...

Thinking about you all today and praying. The white roses are so very touching, what a sweet thing to do! Hugs and love to you all.

Beth (MouseTriper)