Monday, October 22, 2007

Bring The Rain

Seems we are in a holding pattern here. A week since my last post and still the same symptoms continue on, with the low fever coming and going with no rhyme or reason. But Noah is holding his own and is actually quite happy despite it all, and so for now we wait... I'm feeling like we are on pins and needles as we wait for this to turn into something serious enough to head off to the ER. And so I have gotten the kids ready for halloween and I'm trying to finish up all the little things around here in case we go in again. Praying that I'm wrong though and that we can beat this one out of hospital. Brad was up in the Arctic Circle doing training this past weekend and got snowed in an extra day. So now that he is home I can breathe a little easier that we can manage if Noah does go back in.

I heard a song last week that summed up so beautifully the way I have been feeling. Somehow we feel that bad things only happen to other people and we have this feeling of entitlement to a happy, healthy life. But then the rain comes, and we are forced to make a choice. It may not be an easy choice, and we may have to choose over and over each day. We can choose to live a bitter, resentful life, hating the clouds, the wet, the cold...Or we can choose to embrace the thankful for the the rain. For we know that in the grand scheme of things, what's a little rain??

Bring The Rain

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I’ve gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It’s never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there’ll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what’s a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
~Mercy Me
To listen to the song, check out this link


Jamie said...

It takes a lot of faith to pray for rain, but I'm blessed to see that you are choosing to let life's sufferings bring you closer to Jesus. Hoping that you and Noah can stay home for awhile...

Anonymous said...

I to wonder everyday how Noah is doing, and when the next hosptal stya will be, but I will never quite beable to truly understand what yo face day after day, and the uncertainty each new day brings. Jesus is really our only safe place. Where else can we go. You have chosen the right thing. It is wonderful when you come to that place, where you can thank Him for the rain. Our prayers are always with you. love mom

rissa said...

I love the picture of the kids. Nichole, you're the strongest person I know. I think about Noah every single day. I'm blessed to have grown to somewhat know your family and your precious Noah.

May God continue to bless you and Noah. May he stay healthy enough not to be admitted into the hospital.


~Rissa and family

Rosanna Toews said...

Thank you for being an example of faith amidst the rainy, rainy days.